There was a time when I planned to only look for a girlfriend when I’m mature enough to get married. There was a time when I though a girlfriend would only be a distraction to what I want to achieve in my life. And like any other plans in life, they rarely go exactly as planned. But in this case, it went very much better than anyone could have planned.
There was this moment, at the
hallway of our faculty, 10 years ago, that I told this one girl that I would
only enter a relationship if I knew or hope that she would be my wife someday.
I told the girl if by god’s will it was not meant to be; I would still want her
in my life because that was how special she was to me. Some would call it naïve
but that was how sure I was of what she meant to me and will mean to me. Fast forward
10 years, she is now my wife and though the journey was long and full of
obstacles, my belief that she was the one never wavered. You were the one
friend that has always been there for me and one I simply can’t live without.
All my life, I thought it’d be hard to find the one till I found you, and I
find it bittersweet, because you gave me something to lose.
There was a time when I prayed to
god on the way I wanted to meet my future wife. I prayed that I would fall in
love to a friend. A friend that understands me and supports me. I didn’t like
the idea of chasing a girl because I was afraid the excitement will fade as the
chasing ends. God rarely answers my prayer exactly how I want it. God gave me
you, a friend whom I got close with over time. A friend I never knew I needed.
A friend whom till today I never knew the exact moment I fell in love with.
That was how natural it was and I wouldn’t want it any other way. I fell in
love with you mind, heart and soul while we were friends and was convinced that
you were the one after getting to know you better, and I have never looked back
ever since. Looking at how beautiful you are on the outside as well as on the
inside made me realise how lucky of a person I am to have you in my life.
There was a time when my studies
were a bit astray. There was a time when I though having a girlfriend would
make me astray even further. Little did I know it was totally the other way
around. You helped me in my studies more than you know. I was so motivated to
study and succeed because of you and for you. You were my motivation, and
forever will be. I simply could not imagine finishing ACCA as fast as I did
without you every step of the way. Before you I only thought of being
successful first before having a girlfriend but you made me realise success is
nothing if we don’t have anyone to share it with. And there is no one person I
want to share any moments with other than you. You have always pushed me hard
and supported me in every decision I made, even when it didn’t suit you. You
were there during the hard times and the one person I want to celebrate with
during the good times.
There was another prayer of mine that was directly answered too. One that no one knows till today, not even you. I actually prayed for a long-distanced relationship. Crazy I know. I prayed for it because I saw it as an ultimate test of how strong a relationship is. And there you were, with a job offer in Qatar. Devastated would be an understatement. Praying for it was a constant regret. But god is the best planner of them all. We were both on our own separate and challenging journeys. There were a lot of hard times, no doubt, but I could always see myself being with you at the end of it all. Never once I have doubted that you are the one for me. Even in the distance, you were there for me when I needed you, and you supported me in any way you could even when you didn’t need to.
An inspiration. That’s what you
are to me and to many others. You always strive for better and I want to be a
better person every day for you. It’s clear that you inspire people around you
and whoever who knows you. They either want to be you or want to do better
because of you. And here I am, actually have you in my life and now, forever.
And every day I feel lucky that you are in my life. There are days, I wake up,
and I pinch myself, you’re with me and not someone else. And I’m scared, yeah,
I’m still afraid, that it’s all a dream. Because you still look so perfect as
days go by. Even the worse ones, you make me smile. I’d stop the world if it
gave us time.
10 years. That’s how long we’ve
known each other. 10 years of getting to know each other. And that
understanding of each other transcends and goes beyond love. No one understands
me better than you do. No one comes even near you. There is no one I look up to
and want to impress but you, even after all these years. There is no one as
kind-hearted as you. There is no one who values friendship and wants to cherish
it more than you. You are the direct opposite of me, yet you complement me ever
so well. You literally complete me. And I mean every word of it. 10 years. Looks
like we made it, look how far we’ve come my baby. We might’ve took the long
way, but we knew we’d get there someday. And we have J
By now, I should already be your
husband. Would be weird if I post this and I’m not. After 10 years, I could
finally call you my wife. We have gone through so much together and there will
be more and tougher challenges ahead. As always, I have never promised you
anything other than to try my best. You deserve a lot in life, and I will do my
utmost best to give all you deserve in this life. I will do my best to take
care of you in every way possible. I will do my utmost best to give you the
unconditional support that you have given me. I will try my best to make you
happy and be there for you when you are sad. I will be there when you need me
and every time that counts. I am not perfect, but I will be the best version of
myself for you whenever I can. I hope I have made you feel as grateful to have
me in your life, as much as you have made me. And I hope I can continue to make
you feel happy to have me till we grow old. You are my first love and my last.
Love you, always and forever.
10 years and
counting.
2011-2021
20.11.2021 ß Nikah date in case
it’s not obvious enough
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